Do the people think that they will be left to say , "We believe" and will not be tested? [29:2]

There must be reasons for my pain and is part of His plans for me.
Pls give me strength to endure the pain and have beautiful patience for the good that is planned for me.

Everyone can judge me.
Changes are expected but I hope people around me will understand.
I must have gone through a whole lots of thought process before making the decision.
but it was only right for me to feel so.
I need to start Anew.
Ask for forgiveness for the mistakes I have done
Be thankful for the dreams/warnings I can relate so well to
Be grateful for all you've blessed me with.
A prayer for people who have helped me along the way, guided me, loved me.
Just a little more on forgiving all the people who have let me down.

It will not be easy but I will try.
Just the thought of it is overwhelming. I imagine myself declaring the Shahada.
I can already feel relieved, because even if the whole world can't understand
how I feel and the things I am going through, I know You can.
I can speak to You knowing that I can trust You and Your plans.

A revert?
It feels like my whole life, I was put in a position destined to find Him.

People may only know what they were told, and I cannot blame them.
Dear God, only you know how down I have been feeling and how much disappointment
I have to go through each time. They think I haven't done much but I don't care anymore.
As long as You know.

Safinah Talk 23: Trust in His perfect timing

Taking a break from my studying Sun just 3 weeks from exams and haven't started memorizing
hopefully after understanding the first round, memorising will be easier.

Attended a talk organised by Safinah Institute on "Trust in His perfect timing"
It was held at Bugis+ and I was one of the very few ladies without a Tudung.
It was easy to spot. Nonetheless, the 3 speakers were great.
Everyone of us have our reasons to be there - and it may be different.
And they spoke in general statements that deep down you can connect to your own problems.
In fact, I had a tough time battling the tears at some points.
Took away alot from this course. Well spent $24.
Guess I am always the one rushing and hurrying things to be done my way.
Maybe a dysfunctional family was the reason I found 2 other people who loves me as much
and the reason for me to strive to be a better person and built my own ideal family.
Of course, the reason I am closer to Allah.
Have I not gone through the ordeals, I may not have "felt" his existence.
God has a reason for all that has happened, so....
I am telling myself, to have patience and have Faith!
"and it is in the things you love most that you find the greatest test"

I came out of the hall motivated, positive, and hopefully maximising my waiting time to do meaningful things that will make Allah happy and in turn make me happy.

Blessed week ahead.