Do the people think that they will be left to say , "We believe" and will not be tested? [29:2]

There must be reasons for my pain and is part of His plans for me.
Pls give me strength to endure the pain and have beautiful patience for the good that is planned for me.

Everyone can judge me.
Changes are expected but I hope people around me will understand.
I must have gone through a whole lots of thought process before making the decision.
but it was only right for me to feel so.
I need to start Anew.
Ask for forgiveness for the mistakes I have done
Be thankful for the dreams/warnings I can relate so well to
Be grateful for all you've blessed me with.
A prayer for people who have helped me along the way, guided me, loved me.
Just a little more on forgiving all the people who have let me down.

It will not be easy but I will try.
Just the thought of it is overwhelming. I imagine myself declaring the Shahada.
I can already feel relieved, because even if the whole world can't understand
how I feel and the things I am going through, I know You can.
I can speak to You knowing that I can trust You and Your plans.

A revert?
It feels like my whole life, I was put in a position destined to find Him.

People may only know what they were told, and I cannot blame them.
Dear God, only you know how down I have been feeling and how much disappointment
I have to go through each time. They think I haven't done much but I don't care anymore.
As long as You know.