struggle

Right after finishing my 18.45km,
I went to my cousin's place for prayers on my grandfather's death anniversary.
I recited Al-Fatiha instead.
The funny thing was that the dog was initially very excited when we came over, but after I recited Al-Fatiha,  he became very toned down,
he was less active and would just sit down beside me without touching me.
It could be coincidence but... or maybe he just got bored.

Then everyone asked how much I was earning and i meant everyone.
It scares me.

not everyone can understand the peace the religion has taught me.
The family values I never had and learning how to be patient despite setbacks.
This world is just temporary and our judgement day awaits.

I am more afraid that instead of pulling myself out of the shithole,
I am dragging 1 more person down

A name

I have more or less settled on a name.
The very important date is on 14 Nov.
It is life-changing.
It is the biggest decision I have ever made, but I know I'll be better.
I have just less than 2 months to go and I feel so far,
even further than I was 2 months ago.
Fasting period kept me very focused and disciplined.
what happened? Just what happened?
I even dreamt that I forgot how to recite Al-Fatiha
How is that possible?
A timely reminder.
Pray, when times are hard
Pray more, when times are a little at ease.
No one guaranteed a trouble free life,
but if He puts you to it, He will bring you through it!!

buck up please!